I have been affected by depression for as long as I can bear in mind. My earliest childhood memories are tainted with the ominous occurrence of my illness inspite growing up in a very loving home with two kinds and nurturing parents. After having a divorce in my early thirties, I found me personally unable to handle the feelings of sadness that had permeated my presence and often left me unable to get up.
Of course, these feelings had intensified consequently because of my divorce, but even some time before I knew that something was not quite right. I went to see a psycho therapist and my doctor, both of whom asked me when my symptoms began. I actually explained that I was fairly certain they began the day I was born, which both advised me was completely possible.
Since that time, I actually have tried different types of medications. From SSRI’s to MAO inhibitors, I have tried a lot of treatments that I sometimes sensed like a guinea pig. I finally found a treatment that worked for me and produced very few noted side effects. I am now experiencing good life more than I ever have and can honestly say that I actually feel like I never thought I would or even could.
Enjoying life now is some how bittersweet as I look back again over all the years that I spent in bipolar depression without even understanding that it was not normal. I knew something was not the same simply from watching the behavior of others and comparing it to myself, but I always considered it to be my personality or “just the way I am”. I want to encourage others who experience expanded bouts of sadness to get more advice on bipolar depression. There are several resources available on the internet, and even your primary care physician could be of good assistance in helping one to determine if you suffer from depression. He or she can recommend that you speak to a specialist.
Had I known that my issue was correctable, I would have spent lots of years enjoying my life instead of wondering why all others was enjoying theirs. Depression is manageable, and you too can enjoy a happy, productive life.
Treating bipolar disorder in primary care in Canada…