I have suffered from manic depression for as long as I can remember. My earliest childhood memories are tainted with the ominous occurrence of my illness despite growing up in a very loving home with two types and caring parents. After having a divorce in my mid thirties, I found myself unable to handle the feelings of feeling down that had permeated my living and often left me personally unable to get out of bed.
Of course, these feelings had intensified as a result of my divorce, but even well before I knew that something wasn’t quite right. I visited a psycho therapist and my doctor, both of whom asked me when my symptoms started. I explained that I was fairly certain they began the day I was born, which both advised me was totally possible.
Since that time, I have tried a variety of medications. From SSRI’s to MAO inhibitors, I’ve tried a lot of treatments that I sometimes experienced like a guinea pig. I finally found a medication that was effective for me and produced very few noticeable side effects. I am now experiencing good life more than I ever have and can honestly say that I feel like I never thought I would or even could.
Enjoying my life now is somewhat bittersweet as I look again over all the years that I spent in bipolar depression without even knowing that it was not normal. I knew something was different simply from observing the behavior of other folks and comparing it to mine, but I always thought of it to be my personality or “just the way I am”. I want to advice others who experience prolonged bouts of feeling down to get more advice about depression. There are several resources available on the internet, and even your primary care physician could be of great assistance in helping one to determine if you suffer from deep depression. He or she can recommend that you speak to a specialist.
Had I known that my issue was treatable, I would have spent lots of years enjoying my life instead of wondering why everyone else was enjoying theirs. Depression is treatable, and you can also enjoy a happy, productive life.
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