I have been affected by depression for as long as I can keep in mind. My earliest childhood remembrances are tainted with the ominous existence of my depression despite growing up in a very loving home with two types and caring parents. After a divorce in my late thirties, I found me personally unable to manage the feelings of sadness that had permeated my living and often left me unable to get up.
Of course, these feelings got intensified as a result of my divorce, but even well before I knew that something was not quite right. I went to see a psychologist and my doctor, both of whom asked me when my symptoms began. I explained that I was fairly certain they began the day I was born, which both advised me was totally possible.
Since that time, I actually have tried different kinds of medications. From SSRI’s to MAO inhibitors, I’ve tried so many medications that I sometimes experienced like a guinea pig. I finally discovered a medication that worked for me and produced very few noticeable side effects. I am now enjoying life more than I ever have and can honestly say that I feel like I never thought I might or even could.
Enjoying my life now is some how bittersweet as I look again over all the years that I spent in bipolar depression without even knowing that it wasn’t natural. I knew something was different simply from watching the behavior of other folks and comparing it to me, but I always thought of it to be my personality or “just the way I am”. I want to encourage others who experience prolonged bouts of sadness to get more guidelines about depression. There are several resources available on the web, and even your primary care physician can be of good assistance in supporting you to determine if you suffer from depression. He or she may suggest that you speak to a specialist.
Had I actually known that my depression was correctable, I would have spent lots of years enjoying my life instead of wondering why everybody else was enjoying theirs. Depression is manageable, and you too can enjoy a happy, effective life.
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